yes i do have A friend that i can talk to but everytime i talk to her i just end up saying i'm going to kill myself because i REALLY can't take this ANYMORE.
she say's that she understand's but i don't know if she REALLY TRULY understand's what i feel and what goes on inside my head. . . .
but i'm SCARED to go and see a doctor because he might say that there's nothing wrong with me like he did last time. . . .
right now i just don't want to be here cus it HURT'S so much just being here.. ..
i have run out of option's on what to do...
stay?
go?
if i stayed i would get even MORE hurt and then i probably would end up doing something anyway.
but if i go i'd be hurting my friend/s... family...
but then surely i would be FREE?....
no more hurt.. no more pain and no more feeling like this?
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