well, i have been cutting for years, and under my newer scars i can see the older scars, sometimes only lines to show they were there. for me my scars show what happened to me in the past, and i have spent a while now just looking at them, feeling the indentations with my fingers. i am not proud of them in any way, i don't actually like them....but them just being there....i dunno how to expain. i know i was hurt a lot when i was a kid, but noone can see the hurt, and that is the only way i have of seeing that it did hurt.
i'm not sure that makes any sense, sense is not something i am good at right now..i really do think i am loosing my mind.
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