No, I dont really understand it:/ Ive always had a healthy body image, and never cared about my weight a lot. I dont like my body, but I dont hate it either. I guess it's just a combination of the fact that I want to punish myself, and that I feel that i dont "deserve" to eat. Sounds stupid I know. I dont have much energy these days, rarely enough to go to school. So my parents often say stuff to me if I decide to get up and it in the evening, like; you shouldnt be alowed any food the way ur acting, its the only thing you do, eating and sleeping...and they usually get kinda pissed.
And its probably to some part because of my chronical problems with my stomach, ive had em since I was at least 12, and ive tried about everything, and went to alot of doctors. Feels like the only thing working is not eating :(
I also had a long period as a child(almost a year) where I refused to eat anything. Well of course, I did eat, but I only ate like "liquid food"(sorry, my english is bad, and its early in the morning). But stuff like yoghurt, porridge,soups and so on. I dont remember excactly why, cause its a long time ago, but I remember the feeling of no one understanding me. I was scared.
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