Ok, this is kinda off-topic but...
Ive also lost about 9 lbs, and im pretty sure its because of this diet im on(my doctor told me to try it because of my stomach problems).
And the stupid thing is that I kinda like gettin on the scale and watchin the numbet gettin lower..I know its not healthy thinking like that, and I know im NOT overweight. I do kinda starv myself in periods, or more like, I dont feel like eating anything....But other times I get these kicks, and I eat like crazy, just to feel horrible afterwards.
I do not have any desire to get thinner, I just like the fact that im losing weight, makes no sense, I know.
When I eat im full, like after a small amount of food. Today I tried to eat like, a normal amount, and I felt sick afterwards.'
Maybe im just a person who dont need as much food as the others, i dont know. My BMI is like 20, so its totally normal...But I just figured out, that if I loose 11 lbs more, ill be classified as underweight. And my mind feels like its totally messed up, cause in some way i want to reach that number. But I still dont wanna get skinnier.
Maybe its just another form of SI? I dont know. I used to tell myself that it's because ofmy chronical stomach troubles ive had problems eating. And it is, to a certain degree. But...
I honestly dont get myself.
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