You've stopped for a reason, and you've stopped before. This time it's because you have to, but how about the times before? Was that your decision? If so, why was it that you decided to stop?
At the end of the day it's downt o you and you only. 9 days is a terrific achievement, and it gets easier in time. Yes it's going to be ahrd, and you're going to have urges, but it'll be worth it, you've just got to keep fighting them untill they are controllable and not bothering you so much anymore.
As for the holiday, ave you thought about arm warmers or bangles? To be honest no one is going to be interested in looking at your arms, yes there might be people who look but so what? They don't know you. Family or friends should know better. There is also things such as bio oil and vitamins you cant ake to try and lighten the scars. But try not to worry about it, go on your holiday and have a bloody good time because you're doing the hard part by stopping, so give yourself the reward you deserve and enjoy the holiday self harm free.
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