It seems that you've already said what the problem is - not having anyone around that you can talk to or go out with.
Having someone you can just have a blether with, even if it's just nonsense, is a big support.
I've lived away from home for... wow 9 years now. The first couple years were in shared flats but now I stay on my own. Generally I like it, "Home" where my folks are, is 180 miles away, but having lived down here for a few years, almost all my mates are here rather than at "home". [when i'm at my folks, here is home, when I'm here, there is home. Confusing]
But when I get down, or ill, my mum's automatic response is "why don't you come home for a few days?" and I do get looked after, and it's a total change of scene, it's comfortable and familiar, although after a few days I'm usually ready to get back to my own flat.
I don't know what you're flats like but generally my studenty type flats were ok, quite fun, but not the kind of place you want to be when you feel like crap (things are broken, the cupboards are bare, no-one cleans up after themselves). One particular memory of first year -having the flu and my flatmates having a party. No fun, wandering to the bathroom in my PJs, to throw up whilst all these people are sitting around very drunk, was not particularly homely or comfortable.
I guess what I'm saying is that student flats are great in one way but they aren't really home.
I've been in my current flat for five years, when I first moved in on my own it was a relief after having some right dodgy flat mates. I'm used to my own company, if I don't want to see people, I don't. If I do, I do. But not everyone is like that.
I've just kind of rambled there, dunno if it's of any use.
Hope you're feeling a wee bit better
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