Heya's
I went for that interview and it was a real let down as they were very unproffesional & basicly a company of 4 billion dollars well it was disappointing. I had 5 other interviews 1 didn't match me and one i was second candidate if the first didn't work out and the others havent got back to me. I had my last interview yesterday for a panel meeting which I think went pretty well.
I had an hour apointment with doc 2 weeks ago and it took hour half to finish doing the mental health plan our government does. Been labeled with post trumatic stress disorder & anxiety disorder & good old depression :(
I hate labels, have avoided them for so long till my best friend (used to be my case worker) said if I didn't do anything she woud have to ring the hosipital in the end, so it scared me, I hate hospitals more.
I'm on SSI medication & it seems ok I guess apart from the fact I think their the cause of me sleeping alot & no motivation but I'm not sure. I'm not going to study anymore due to the fact I hate payroll that I'm doing & can't be bothered. Which is sad as I want to do study.
Think its been 2 weeks on the medication I haven't been good which is a let down but I'm alive thats the main thing I guess you could say.
At the moment brisbane where I live is like $300 a week for rent which I can't pay on my own & I dout I could save for home loan on my own either with my son.Alot of rental agencys won't take single parents. So I have given up on that idea see myself stuck in this stupid fricken relationship that isn't even a relationship.Least I don't have to explain my arms he ignores it.
I'm traped in myself I'm trap in real life & I just hate it & I hate myself more.I'm being nice to everyone around me don't have the energy to be other wise.
Sorry for the vent hope you guys are all ok, *picks flowers for you all*
Apples
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