[Katch]

Thanks for this thread. it never seems so severe to say 'I'm going to hit myself' as it does to say ' i'm going to cut' but the feelings behind it are just as bad and just as painful - i don't have so many scars but i have lots of bumps and grissly bits especially on my arms and broken red veins on my face - that's my reminder.
I do cut and have od'd a fair few times but my main thing is hitting and has been since i was little. It really is the thing that means the most to me - even if I cut i then have to hit to make it feel ok. and it's not just hitting - it's really hitting - the more the better - each event goes on a few days - something like everytime i walk in my room i have to do 12 hits - i've had several broken bones - and each excuse i use is alwasy beleived - i guess people could never think you could do that to yourself.