*hugs you* I'm sorry you're having such a rough time of things right now. Try not to blame yourself for your friend's death, it was her decision not yours. It's an awful thing to have happened and I'm sorry you've had to go through it but it's not your fault.
Have you thought about going back to hospital for a while or at least talking to your doctor about how you feel? I'm sure your wife would disagree about life being better without you. If you can't bring yourself to check back into hospital, please at least talk to your doctor about how bad you feel. S/he might be able to help you through this hard time.
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