thank you Dave.
*snuggles you back*
i seriously cant do this anymore.
i WANT to dissociate. i WANT to stay in a dissociative state to avoid this reality. i have taken all my painkillers(not all at once...just ran out) and im in pain. dont get a refill for a while. i know im addicted to them....but i just dont care anymore. im scared.
way too much stress.
i dont know how to cope anymore.
ive basically stopped harming....it doesnt really help anymore.
our financial situation is a disaster.
i live on a disability check and Kelly doesnt work and has no income.
im supporting 3 people on $600.00 a month. it IS NOT enough. not even close.
why the **** cant i get a break???????????????????????????????????
what have i done so wrong????
i ****ing hate myself.
if it werent for Kelly and my son i swear to God...i would end this.
