Originally Posted by
flying rain
I don't want to deal with this **** in my life anymore. I'm sick of dealing with the stress, the anxiety, the feelings of worthlessness.
I want somebody else to take care of me, to tell me it's going to be okay.
It's for me. It's to prove I have some measure of personal strength.
i know how you feel, really i do. sometimes it just seems so horrible and unfair that we have to deal with this, all those things like the stress and worthlessness.
right now i wish someone would just come and hold me and tell me everything will be ok, but like you i dont have anyone so i know its so hard to keep going and try to look after yourself and deal with this yourself.
you make a really good point though about doing this for yourself - hang onto that thought. you are the most important thing and the fact that you are jst trying so hard not to cut shows you have loads of personal strength!
you are doing so well to be fighting this hun, please just try to hang in there, keep going, keep holding on, and you will feel so much better for it in the end