thank you for replying so quickly.
actually ive talked to my psychologist alot about this. it is psychosomatic pain...but it is real...and pain killers do work. he did research on it and from what he told me....after a flashback, my brain tells my body that i am in pain...therefore i feel the pain. also....since i dissociated many times during the abuse.....i am actually experiencing the pain now as i didnt then.
however...my dissociating is becoming a problem again.....ive tried all grounding techniques.....sometimes they work...sometimes not.
this is the hardest part that ive been through concerning my PTSD. i used to have nightmares, but they are gone and replaced with flashbacks. i have no sense of the present when they attack me. my gf says they last about 2 minutes. she says my body tightens as if im in a seizure and i shake and scream or cry sometimes. i feel so humiliated that she witnesses them.
thank you for your help.
loves.
xxxxx
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