Depression isn't a logical thing, as wabbit said, and it strikes anybody at any time. You dont deserve to feel that way, though, and your family deserves you to be well. I wouldnt worry about getting help. Being depressed or SIing doesnt make you an unfit parent. Plenty of parents that I knew growing up were in therapy and diagnosed with depression and anxiety and related things. If you arent a danger to others, or a danger to yourself (in suicidal terms), there are no grounds whatsoever to take your child from you. In fact, seeking professional help may make you look more impressive because you are being responsible. But, more importantly, you dont deserve to feel this way and you are entitled to help. I don't know your fiance's details, but if she is reaching out to you and noticing that things are wrong, I wouldnt necessarily shut her out for not wanting to burden her. It may cause her more pain to know that something is wrong but that you wont tell her about it. Give her a chance, maybe, and you both might feel better in the end.
Good luck, and congratulations on the little one. I hope mom and baby are doing really well.
xxxooo
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