Originally Posted by
Soph
Thankyou for all your kind messages, i do appreciate it. I'm beginning to lose hope. It's too late for me, my niece is the only one that matters, no one will ever love her like i do, i raised her and i do care about her but she is three years old now and she deserves better than this, i love her but i'm in no state to provide the care that my girl deserves. I have no one and right now i feel as though i am on my own, there appears to be no way out or no way forward for me. I am becoming mentally and physically weaker by the day. She deserves better than me. I just wish I could be stronger.
Once again thankyou for your messages, it means a lot xx
As above, seek some sort of help. When I was younger, my mother had to ask for help when she was losing hope and it helps a lot.
If your niece means this much to you, stay strong.
One of my favourite quotes is "Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger".... Which if true, means that somewhere deep inside you there is a MASSIVE amount of strength. Some people would have given up long ago, but you haven't. For that, I have a lot of respect for you and what you've managed to pull through.
There are ways out and some of these are not permanant. Things like respite care from the Social services. I spend 6 weeks away from my Mum and she found it helped a lot when I was younger. In fact, when I went back to her she was a changed woman.
Things may get tougher before they get better, but think in the long run about how much this little girl needs you.
As other people have suggested, visit a specialist or ask your GP for advice and remember, you have mine and most probably almost everybody elses highest respect on here for managing to handle this.
And without sounding all woosy, I actually got REALLY upset when I read this post.
Take care and remember, my PM box is ALWAYS open and I'm on MSN and almost everything else IM!
Stu x