Its understandable that you feel like theres nothing to live for considering all the horrible things that you have been through, but there are so many things in life which can be so great.
i know its not as simple as this, but whenever i feel overwhelmed with all theabuse things that i have been through and life is just getting so unbearable, i just think that i am not going to let the bastards win. I do simple things like treating myself, because i deserve to be treated well as do you. I also make a real effort to discuss the parts of abuse that are particularly effecting me that week/ recently with my therapist, hoping that talking about them, discussing them and hearing other peoples response to what i have been through, the different views that people have about it. I had it drilled into me that i deserved it, that it was all my fault, but talking to someone saying it all outloud, and realising that maybe it wasnt all my fault makes me feel that bit better.
Do you have a counsellor or a close friend to talk to? if you havent got a therpist maybe you could look into getting one?
pm if you want to talk
amy
xxx
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