[tamobhuuta]

my sister (14, almost 15) has been cutting and i can't bear it. often she doesn't wear long sleeves so you can see old marks and i feel awful and it triggers me really badly. i thought by cutting, somehow magically, i could stop her doing it, but that was stupid and obviously didn't work. and i wouldn't want her to spend all her time covered up, uncomfortable and ashamed. i want to cry and it makes me feel angry too, not at her, i don't know at who, maybe angry at myself and at her pain. okay the little bint gets on my nerves sometimes, being all moody (expressing her feelings??? how very dare she! i don't know what this world is coming to) but not for this, i can't stand it, i want to take it all away and i can't, because i know perfectly well she's her own person, even if i do partly cause her emotional pain. but seeing the evidence, reproaching me, tears me up in side and i can't deal with it, i don't know how. i know i'm being selfish. help?