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I-Feel-Infinite · 16-05-2008, 10:50 PM

see i have a theory that people are born with a tendancy to SI.....
because I DEF did things to deliberately hurt self when I was younger - unaware that I was harming myself though....
like ripping out hair when I was upset....
jumping off stairs to hurt ankles...
dislocated my jaw once accidently, then after that, because i knew it was loose, i kept deliberately trying to dislocate it again....

thinking about it feels SO ****ed up!!!!

but yeah, i think that what you did counts as SI - because it can really start at any age...

16-05-2008, 10:50 PM	#9
I-Feel-Infinite Jess ~♥ Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Wiltshire, UK I am currently:	see i have a theory that people are born with a tendancy to SI..... because I DEF did things to deliberately hurt self when I was younger - unaware that I was harming myself though.... like ripping out hair when I was upset.... jumping off stairs to hurt ankles... dislocated my jaw once accidently, then after that, because i knew it was loose, i kept deliberately trying to dislocate it again.... thinking about it feels SO ****ed up!!!! but yeah, i think that what you did counts as SI - because it can really start at any age...
	As a little kid you believed in fairytales, that fantasy of what your life would be: white dress; prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You closed your eyes and had complete and utter faith. Eventually you grow up. One day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairytale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.