Difficult question. It all started when my boyfriend made me promise I wouldn't do it again. So, at the beginning I gave SH up for my boyfriend. But now, 4 and a half years later, after too many slip ups, lies, hurting him and myself... I've finally come to realize that I should do it for MYSELF. And for HIM. And for our FUTURE. Because there is no future for me without him. I can give up SH, but I cannot give up him. SH is good for me, but not for US. SH only brings me trouble, more and more lies, knowing that my bf wouldn't be able to take it if I told him I did it again. I don't want to lie to him. I love HIM, not SH.
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