What are the emotions that you're finding difficult?
Worthlessness, hopelessness, helplessness, guilt, rage. That's mostly it I guess.
well, it does sound like the control has been reduced.
I'm still in control. Just what happens in life and how I feel are out of my control right now.
can you think of any reasons why you have been cutting so much lately?
Well I guess just the feeling I said above have been intensified and compounded and the stress of school and life are getting to be alot.
i know sometmes when you start cutting more its easier just to keep going and going but the more you do it hte harder it is to regain control, and that could start getting out of hand and dangerous. so i think u really need to try and identify and reasons for why you're doing it so much and try to address them, maybe through counselling?
I don't really have any money for counseling right now. I do have a SC but I can't trust her. I've already made that mistake before. Also I couldn't do that to my parents. They have alot to deal with. The last thing they need is to find out their daughter's crazy. Plus they though I'd stopped in 8th grade. That's quite a long time to be lied too. I don't want to hurt them like that.
I understand about emotions running down your arms.. for me, my need, longing and frustrations are in my arms..
yep i understand about the arms too.
Yea. I'm glad someone does. It's really hard for me to explain it. Like when I am upset I get this strong dull pain in my arms. It feels like it is coming from the middle of the bone or something. I always try to get rid of it by rubbing but it never works