[koolaid]

Hi
I'm new on hear and don't really know what to say. I mean I want to say a million things, things that I have never ever said aloud to anyone before, but...I don't know what to say. I've just been sat reading everyones posts for the last few hours, and I'm forcing myself to post something, just to get the ball rolling. I don't want to waste anyones time. I'm scared to talk about it, I never have before. Not in 7 years. I have nothing but respect for you all, reading somethings on here, I just cant even get my head around it.

Basicly I want to talk about what happened to me to two people I would trust with my life, I know they will listen and to some extent they will understand, I just keep backing out because I have kept it a secret for so long. I think I just need help working up the courage to talk about it. And knowing how to start the conversation!

Thanks for reading this.

K