idk what's triggering the urges,, i honestly have no idea... but it's killing me not cutting!
it's become a way of life for so long,, and jus having to STOP completley,, and it's not even my choice..
my parents have threatened me that if i cut again im not going on holiday (America for 1 month cuz for 2 weeks i'd be on my own with my best mate who lives in Baltimore).. neway they say that if i cut i wont be allwed to go and they'll jus put me in hospital =S
so it's like i feel i have to cut,, but at the same time i CANT! cuz i wonna see my bestie soooo much! idk if i can manage it
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