[Mimsy]

I don't really know whether I want to make this post or not..I'm quite nervous but I could do with some support. I'm 6 months SI free which is getting easier-ish. Recently I've found it even more hard...I'm not sure why, but I'm even more attracted to just destroying everything thats healed. Since I stopped my SI, I slowly and steadily stopped eating and started more excercising.. my weights dropped along with my dress size but my confidence just gets lower. I just feel like I can't handle things at the moment. I really feel like I'm letting people down by doing this. I sit down and feel my stomachs rolls out in front of me and I feel fat. I don't know what to do, or how to control it. Sorry this is a babble..I just need to get it out.