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Katch -sweetie so many people care and i admire you so much for sharing your story its so brave. Im sorry your mum has been like that with you. Im glad your feeling a bit better things will get better in time and you will be happy one day :)

The trust thing is weird like i dont really trust men but i decided to have a male doctor and counsellor -i guessed they were legally bound not to touch me or come near me so i built up trust and my counsellor i tell him lots about how i feel about men and he says that if i have cbt that may help. Thank you, im so sorry you have been through it as well no one deserves it -i dont know if you see any of your abusers any more i really hope you dont but when i do i just know whatever i do now its for me and no one else hes not worth it i will beat this, i will be strong, and one day i hope to be in a good relationship. Your advice is brilliant thank you. Im only beginning to realise exactly what you say is true but its right and i just feel so much anger and resentment too i want to let go of that but i dont know how another thing that will come in time i hope.