I wish my mum would tell me how she feels, instead of hiding it all away.
I wish she understood that sometimes, i need to hurt.
I wish my dad understood how painful it is for me to go and see him, because he thinks i should be over the fact that he's moved out right now.
I wish they both knew how much the family memories hurt me, because i can't ever revisit them, and nothing will ever be the same.
I wish they both understood that they need to protect my brother, i don't want him to be like me.
I wish they understood how torn apart I am.
And i wish they understood my lack of willpower, and my want to be drunk all the time.
I wish my dad would come home, and everything would be normal, and even though they'd fight, it would be okay, because they would all be under the same roof and i'd be able to comfort them all at once :( And maybe things would be okay :(
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