[quote]I'm not sure what to say exactly as so many things go around in my head and some days I just want to grab my head and shake it telling it to snap out of it. If only it was that easy *sigh*[quote]
Ahh if only it was that easy.

I think a lot of us have felt like that quite often.
It's good that your friends think you are strong - they see you regularly so they must be right - I actually think that most of us on here are a lot stronger than we realise - we have been through a lot and we have survived this far so we must be. Hang on in there and remember there are loadsof people on here that care.
