[Katch]

Not pathetic at all - it's completely normal - you have been hurt terribly and your trust completely broken. If someone hugs me my 'friends' say Oh she doesn't like being hugged... but none of them have ever stopped to ask why - it makes me feel like a freak - I'd love to feel comfortable being hugged. It's really hard having to see this person getting on with their life as if nothing has happened - (I'm sure they remember) - it does get easier to cope both on a day to day basis and having to see this person - but I dont think you can ever feel like you did before. Try and do some things that you do enjoy - or read the posts of others and reply - that's what I'm doing at the moment and it does seem to help a bit and certainly distracts me for a while from thinking about my own misery too much. Feel free to tell me anything you want - I won't judge you, I'll just offer my thoughts and some comfort where I can. Take care and try and remember you are worthwhile.