i think you have a problem as well. if you find yourself needing to get some sort of a drink to catch a buzz or get drunk each day, then yeah you have a problem. dont feel bad though, youre not alone. if you used to cut yourself to get by, and now you use a substance then you didnt just develop this problem, its pre-exsisting. cutting yourself is also an addiction. both addictions create a sense of escape from your problems.
i think what you ought to do, is if you are in fact an alcoholic, is to get PROFESSIONAL help because the detoxification process of alcohol can be life threatening and very dangerous because of the DT's and sickness.
what you need to do is have a determined mind to not just be clean, but live a healthy sober lifestyle. they say you should go to meetings, i say you NEED to go to meetings if you have any chance of survival. drinking is a very destructive habit on your body, as is any substance abuse, it causes severe liver damage and also damages your heart, circulatory system, and kills mannnnnnnny brain cells in the process.
get off the stuff as soon as you can.
i recommend seeing a psychiatrist to deal with past emoitional trauma, as well as problems that may cause you to use presently. find out your triggers. go to meetings. find friends/family you can rely on to help you get through rough times. MAKE SURE YOU DONT USE IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM, it will only make it worse. talk to someone instead. stay strong and take it day by day. minute by minute if you have to.
i wish you the best.
chad
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