I wish my mum knew how much she messed me up just by not being there.
I wish she knew how much i have TRIED to be perfect for her.
I wish she knew that I do this to myself because I NEED to in order to survive...it's not to punish her qor attention seek...otherwise she would have found out ages ago.
I wish she knew how she's pushing me away
I wish she knew how hard I'm fighting. How each day is a struggle.
I wish she knew I'm planning on leaving ASAP....
I wish she knew ^ so she could try to change...
I wish my dad knew...that although he hurt me....although I make out that I hate every inch of him...deep down...I still wonder...deep down...I think about what he's doing, where he's working...if he has any other kids... if he ever thinks of me...
I wish he knew...I just need closure on him.
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