i wish my mum knew how much everything she says and does affects me.. and that its her fault im like this.. but she doesnt know what 'this is' i wish she knew what was going on.. and how much she is killing me inside.
i wish my dad knew how much everything he says when he complains about mum affects me, and i say that i dont care.. but deep down inside i really do.. and his venting to me.. just makes everything a whole lot worse. i want them to both know about my SH.. but at the same time.. im scared because maybe they wont do anything about it.. or even worse, they will just brush it off and pretend its not happening..
i wish they could understand what is happening to me.. i wish they could know things.. so many wishes.. yet none will ever come true. writing this made me cry.
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