They are wrong. You're intelligent, sensitive and a caring person. But you're in a lot of distress.
I understand how much names and words can wound and hurt. When I was a your age I wrote a poem which included the lines "standing alone screaming silently to a mass of uncaring people who misunderstand". I know how it feels. I know how it feels to be haunted by all this... scarring of words.
But words can also bring healing. Words can help hold, be gentle. Words are powerful, and that power can go either way. In the past you didn't have the choice as all the power was taken from you. Now you have more space to become yourself, get yourself back. And that can be scary. It can make all that internal torment come back full force.
I'm on your side. As are others here. You're not alone through this.
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