things are just so **** right now. i want them to be ok , but nothing works. i reach out for support but nothing touches whats going on. Its not that i dont listen, nor is it that i dont want help. its all just impossible.so many struggles and the only con to self injury i can find right now is the mess that i cant be bothered to deal with and the trip to hospital which it is likely to result in.
for the few people i have in my life, i try to make thing s happy, but how can i begin to make things happy for other people if i'm so far from happy myself. To be honest - just 'ok' would be fine by me, but i've cornered myself with other peoples words and manipulations -yet again.
so everyone is unhappy with me. inside and out. wonderful
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