It can get better. Not all at once, or even how you expect, but, with help and time, things can ease.
Anti-depressants don't take away the pain, but they can help you tolerate it. Maybe you need a different medication, what does your dr think on that?
It's understandable, with what you've been through, that you're experiencing such a fear of people. I know it's something I struggle with fairly regularly. Try to focus on those times when you've felt safe with someone, even if it was only a moment. It can help build up a bank of safety inside you.
Often, with pasts like you [and I] have experienced, the first part of recovery is accepting what happened, and how it's effected you, before you can move onto the next step. It's rather like a grief, and depression is part of that.
Can you describe some more about what exactly it is you're scared of?
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