[my inner battle]

well....you could try any of the following

• using ice instead of blades, hold the ice on the place you cant to cut and it really hurts after a bit and it leaves no marks
• using red market pens to draw on the cuts
• putting bandages/plasters/band aids on were you want to cut
• if you SH on your arms put elastic band on your arms and 'ping' them when you want to cut...really hurts and you can do it over and over agen
• writing poetry/storys/journal
• or just talking to people about your problems

if any of these help you i would love to know
or if you just want to chat

good luck babe the hardest thing is deciding you dont want to SH anymore
xxxxxx<3