I understand. When I left home I moved from SI to alcohol too. I only drank for three years before a couple of people told me to get to an AA meeting. I'm not saying that you need to do that. I've been sober for 13 years but the same feelings of frustration and hopelessness that were the reasons I SI are the reasons I drank. I just wanted to stop hurting!
It is not for me to determine if you are an alcoholic. The AA web site has lists of questions but it is up to you if you want to look.
For me, the same things that help keep me sober help me not SI, just like the same things trigger me. You've obviously thought about it.
It is great that you've connected the two.
If you want, PM me. I'll do my best to answer your questions or just listen!
Hugs!
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