We do talk to be fair to him, at the minute the reason I'm finding it so hard is I can't let go I know that. I am always open with my feelings to him and even now I'm one of the only people he can be open with, it's just so confusing. I can't figure out why he won't come back when he says he loves me and wants to be with me and wants to come over and see me before and after work. It makes NO sense. And it's hurting so much. I hate the word single. I never used to I was fine being single, until I met him and now the idea of being single, not having him it's just not right. He walked out on me and I made a mistake. I'm kicking myself for it I know its the thing standing in the way I just - I don't even know I can't possibly be making any sense.
Thanks hun. For eading and caring :)
Eeee he just rang me and my hearts gone all horrible and bumpy. He's coming over for half hour before work. I have to stop pushing him, I know that. But oh god...
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