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the temptation is too much!
I dont want to sleep
I dont want to dream
I dont want to live.
I dont want to breatthe.
I DONT WANT TO CUT!!
My life is such a mess. I cut in school today and I always told myself I would never do that but my urges were just sooo bad!
I just want to start seeing my therapist before things get way out of hand. On top of SH I smoke everyday to try and forget the pain and feelings. They are just too much to bare and I have no one to turn to.
I am afraid to say something about my problems to anybody because I have before and they just told on me and from there on I dont trust many.
I want to get better but I dont think I have the will or the strength to get through this. I cant even last a day without cutting and its all I ever think about!! PLease help me =[
<3 Ashley
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