well done on the 4 months. i dont know why feeling so bad tonight, had a meeting with my manager today but cos i had to be involved in another meeting we kind of left it mid topic. she is worried cos what i am doing or thinking of doing is worse than has been, even tho head cloud has been improving sh isnt. im getting frustrated cos the damage i want done isnt happening not through want of trying!!!!! obviously cant go into too much details. phone my friend and sobbed for an hr now trying something new sh wise. my brain hurts so much and to make things worse my mnager said that she thought that i didnt want to get totally better cos i want a bit of the attention-not that i was sh for direct attention but know i would get something out of chatting to them-knowing that someone cares. my brain hurts so much. dont want to go to work tommorow! :(
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