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Old 21-04-2008, 08:51 PM   #31
ZDrache
What do you Care? -|- What do you Dare?
 
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There was once a Science teacher in my school who has scars all over her arms, especially her left arm. They were faded, but quite large and, at least to me, noticeable. I found myself hating her for wearing short sleeved shirts because I found her scars upsetting.
I did ask her about them once, but I'd rather not think about that, there's painful emotions attached to that memory.

Generally if I see scars on people and I know they're from self-injury, I will stare, trying to make it subtle but probably failing. I study them and think about what tools did they use, how did they feel at the time, where and, most fascinatingly, why. But I haven't asked anyone, though I'll quite openly talk about mine.

I'm generally unselfconcious about my scars, most of them are small and white (the ones on my arms anyway, but no-one has to see much else lol) although it annoys me that people can still read that it says SORRY on my arm.




"Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid." "Yeah."


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