You don't need to be sorry for posting. Never apologize for asking for help. The same as you should never apologize for feelings, because when you do you apologize for the truth.
Are you talking about letting people down by not being able to stop SIing, or in some other way? If it's because of your SI, people aren't going to be annoyed with you! I know how you can think that. I do all the time. I feel like I can't reach out for help because I'll be a bother and that my prob;ems aren't "real". The fact is though, the people who love you, they won't be annoyed at YOU, they will be annoyed at the SITUATION. There is a big difference. I don't think annoyed is the right word, but I guess you can figure out what I mean. Being annoyed at a person, is usually because of something they control, and are able to change, but refuse. Being annoyed at a situation is like when you are on a plane, and you have to stay up for 3 hours extra. You are mad because of whatever is keeping you there, but not at the pilot. It kind of the same here. The people will be upset that you felt you needed to cut, or that you didn't come to them, but they won't be mad at you personally. Don't blame them for their first reactions though.
Can you say why you had to cut? I know it's hard explaining emotions like those, but maybe it can help?
If you ever need to talk, PM me anytime<3
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