I hope with all my heart that you are ok. I know something happened to you, did you try to take your life? What happened? I know you were depressed but why was I told you had gone insane? You're not insane, no one's insane. I really, really, really hope you are well. The thought of you not being alright drives me crazy, I can't stand it. Please be alright, please be the same old you. PLEASE! I want to see you but I'm afraid they won't let me. I want to see you so bad but what if you're not yourself anymore? I heard you weren't even speaking, how did that happen? If I saw you would you even recognize me or remember me? Would you talk to me? Would you still love me? Would you remember me? I'll never forget you. It's just too sad to even think you're not alright. It makes me cry so much. I want to return the favor, I want to make you feel loved. Make you feel special, like you did with me. I want to be there. Gods, I even want to take care of you. If thinking about you in a bad state makes me this sad and desperate, that means I love you, right? Yes. I do, I do.
Please, please please be ok, please be normal, please. You have to be alright, you just do. What happened to you?! Please be ok.
I'm silently wishing all the best in the world for you, I honestly believe you deserve it and if you are/were depressed, I know how that feels and I would never judge you or look down on you for that. I would never be disappointed for that. I can even understand wanting to leave and I would never hold it against you for trying or thinking about it.
Wishing I was one of yours so I could be there for you,
Me.
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