Hey hon, I'm really sorry you feel like this, but you must keep on going, because you will come out of this the other side and be so glad you didn't give up. Think of all the people that you make happy every day, and who's lives you have had an impact on, and when you feel at you're at your darkest hour do just one more for them. Think of all the people in the future that you will help, and who's posts you have replied to and made a difference to..
If you really feel you can't pressure your friends then perhaps you could go to the doctors and ask them to set you up with a therapist/counsellor, just to get the feelings off of your chest face to face, and help by offering you practical advice, yet not make you feel you are putting pressure on them. Sometimes when i need to get my mind off stuff the easiest thing to do is to watch a movie (if it's really bad then i regress to Disney), or do something that can get my mind off things.
I'm sorry i have been so useless about all this hon, cos i know whilst i don't feel like this now it is easy for me to give silly solutions.
If you ever want PM me for support or a rant feel more than free to, and stay strong, because i know you can get through this...
take care *hugs* <3 x
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