[metallic smile]

i hate my body.
i hate my mind.
i hate my personality.
i hate my lack of identity.
i hate myself.
i hate how i cut.
i hate that i'm twisted.
i hate that it hurts my parents.

i hate myself.
all i want to do is cut myself to pieces.
i want to see myself suffer.

i'm supposed to be over this ****.
but i'm not.
it always comes back, and no matter what i do, i can't shake it.
of all the things i wanted to become, this is the one thing i wanted to leave behind.
instead, everything i saw myself growing into is somewhere else, and all i'm left with is this.

somebody save me.