I had a really bad day today... It kinda started yesterday after noon when i wen to my therapist and she made me feel really bad about a slip up and kept saying stuff like you were doing so well and now you messed up, if you do it again I'll have to tell your mom, you should feel sorry you did it it was a good thing you slipped because it'll make you realize how much you don't need it anymore but thats not true because all its done is making me realize how much i miss it. Then this morning my dad wouldn't shut up when i was waking up. then in school i lost my head phones that were 30 bucks, am pretty sure i failed my math test and got a really bad headache... My friend talked to me and tried to help me but I really want to cut right now
.I want to feel the blade on my skin...Ugh I hate this... I hate me... I feel like I'm a big failure. Sry this is a big rant.....