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yuck
Forgive me if I have not labeled this right. This is my first post, besides the intro one, so if it is wrong, please correct me. I am not sure what I am looking for, support, guidance, but I just feel like complete crap. I thought yuck details it well. I had 3 years in with no cutting and cut yesterday. I thought maybe it would just be that, but I felt so better yesterday and all day long today I kept looking at my upper arm and thinking well that is not even red enough. It is not angry enough. I want more, so much more. I can't let this happen. I can not go back to this. I just can not believe how much like an addiction this really is. I thought just once and I would feel better and I won't want to do it anymore, but I want to so bad and I am so scared. I guess I was just looking for advice, if any one has some on how to stop a full fleged relapse into cutting all the time and not being able to stop.
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