I have been on sooo many antidepressants and am currently on 60mg of Prozac, 30mg of Temazepam and 1mg of Lorazepam. They said they don't know what else to give me anymore. They won't put me back into hospital as they said that they don't want the defense to make out I'm crazy if it goes to court re the rape. That may be fair enough but I need the help now. I keep self harming and try to stop it but I NEED to do it. It like a compulsion now. I try to avert my mind but I can't. I HAVE to cut. My sanity depends on it now. I'm starting to enjoy it too much.
I am seeing the Mental Health Team tomorrow but other than this I have never been to counseling. I have fought for so long to get help but been told that I am an attention seeker or I have been offered stress management! If it wasn't for my mum and my little sister I wouldn't be here but to be honest I don't think it is enough anymore to stop me. No one seems to believe that I am as desperate as I feel. Don't know what to do
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