I dont think i can carry on like this anymore. I am falling apart each day. I miss cutting so badly, i promised i wouldnt do it anymore when i was released from hospital and for sometime it worked, but then the other week i smashed a mirror and pushed a piece of glass through the middle of my and cut my hand open too, it felt so good, I had to go to A+E but luckly they believed my "story". I just want my life back, i just want it back, i dnt want anymore, SU/SI, hospital, theraphy, meds, i jst want my god dam life back, im going mad, and i cant take it anymore. Everyone who have done something horrible to me seems to get on like nothing ever happened, and it really gets to me. I jst want OD or cut, or something. aggghhhhh Im soooo wound up. Why did i throw my last blade away? why? why is this happening to me? why am i freaking out? im not seeing my shrink till the 2nd May my 18th birthday! How unlucky is that!
I jst want my life back, can anyone help?
Sorry for being a pain,
Sarah
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