hey hun, sorry i havent been here.
you see families from a different angle than Kelly does. You have a family that seemingly don't care, are never about for you and in fact seem intent on backstabbing you. Then there's Keith, the one who you would die for, the one who you in fact live for, the only one who cares... the only one you can't have.
You are doing the right thing by having someone else look after Kelly's kids. You know you can't be properly responsible. You are doing an unselfish thing, you are protecting them.
Kelly will likely change moods quite a bit with meds coming and going and i imagine she is in quite a bit of pain too. Keep trying with her. Be patient and don't take anything hurtful to heart.
Try and keep focused, maybe stop re-arranging appointments and go to some. It will give you something to aim for, it will break up the time alone into more manageable periods. Get on with living. Show Kelly that you can survive without her while she recuperates. Be strong. I know it's hard. Love you rachie, mand x
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