Sometimes I have reasons, like stress/anxiety/self loathing ect ect
But a lot of the time, it's like...not boredom.
I'll just be sitting there, usually feeling kind of numb/bored...and
I just get this feeling that the emptiness in my head is unbearable
and the thought is just there.
I don't know, it just pop's into my head, SI.
It's so weird, It just appears there.
And the thought of SI'ing satisfies me, so I go and do it.
Urgh, I hate myself sometimes because I feel like I'm just doing it for the sake of it, it's like, I'm doing it just for the drama of it or somthing....
I dunno...
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