honestly, i can really, really relate too. i constantly feel like i'm trying to find something wrong with who i am, but i'm not sure if i'm just looking for an excuse.. i even feel like coming on this forum is like a cry for attention, but i know that i can't talk to anyone else and that i'm usually ashamed of how i feel. really, no one wants to feel depressed, regardless of reasoning. usually i find myself just wanting to be like everyone else; i really don't know how most people can constantly be so happy and optimistic. anyway, you sound very far from pathetic. it would be kinda hypocritical for me to give you advice, since i'm basically in the same boat, but i'm sure you'll find closure. remember, even if you are diagnosed with something like depression, that doesn't define you, that just something that you have to overcome.
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