wow. i really understand what you mean to be honest. I couldnt relate more.
The thing is.. can you stop making yourself depressed? No? Then its out of control.
Also, you must be feeling bad in the first place to be wanting to make yourself depressed. Noone wishes depression on themselves unless theyre half way there already.
I hope what ive said makes sense, and i would encourage you to get help.
update us yeah? x
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